In the cleaning process, I found this letter I wrote to a guy who was one of my best friends in SA. I wrote it at the start of year 12 and it’s one of those letters that's never meant to be sent. It kind of breaks my heart a little. I’m always caught off guard and overwhelmed by how much I just miss him some days. I’d give anything to know if he’s even thought of me, let alone missed me, these past years. It’s strange you know, considering how little I relate to my past, how I still seek this connection.
I also found all these documents and letters I wrote for my ex-friend who was school captain. It grates me to think how much work I did, how good I made her look, and for what? I shouldn’t have bothered. Retrospect…good for nothing really.
Other than that, I'm merely pontificating over short-term future plans. Trips overseas and all that. Roze and a bunch of her friends are considering heading to Scotland for Hogmanay and I’ve been invited along, should it go ahead. It merits serious consideration. I could do a hop from San Fran to New York to the UK. Options are endless really, that’s half the problem. Also wondering if I should do my Masters at UTS or look at other unis. It’s just easier to stick to what I know and I’ve never really had any issues with UTS once I got used to it. I suppose it’s not really traditional tertiary education, but sometimes I feel it seems a lot more hands on. Ah well. We’ll see.
I’ve rented a bunch of DVDs to watch this week since I couldn’t find the one I wanted to buy. It was only $9 for all seven so I feel it’s not a bad deal.
On that note, I’ve got half a bottle of wine still at my disposal and I am going to make the most of this while watching De-Lovely.
My light really is too slight to hold back all my dark.
Phrase of the day: "Are these stalker cookies?"
Music: The Man of Metropolis Steals Our Hearts - Sufjan Stevens
Mood: Gloomy
Oh Jeanette, you prawn! You're the most amazing friend ever... even when you're being maudlin (god I love that word). I *loves* you just the way you is! SMOOOOOOOOOCH!
ReplyDeleteWow, I love the new layout.
ReplyDeleteOh, and hey, even though I don't really know you, not very well and for not very long, I think you're pretty awesome.
If you can convince someone of that just by some stray text from your brain, you must be alright, if not straight out fantastic.
American Gods is something you must, must read. I finished it when it was the depths of winter last year and while I was reading the last chapter I nearly froze to death at my bus stop. You'll understand the significance of that when you actually read the novel, but you know it's a nice story...being frost bitten, clutching at a hunk of a book, shaking and swearing and yet getting that joy and completeness you get from finally finshing a book.
I suspect I shall implode when I finish Gormenghast.
Much love *grins*
Maudlin! Haha see! It catches like wild fire!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the cheer squad Abs, as always.
Dude, you're pretty awesome yourself :) The joys of the internet means we can make such statements and mean them, even if significantly little time has passed. Oh, and I've heard good things about that book, just never seem to get around to reading it. Top priority atm tho.
Oh and hey, thanks for the props on the layout :D
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